Plane stress, work stress, tired of stress and many more updates.

I love this blog… I really do, and I haven’t even had it that long! Listen to me, sounding like I’m some sort of blogging pro by now, haha. I’m slacking majorly though. I have so much going on right now and it just feels like everyone’s getting on my nerves, do you know that feeling? I’ve had that alot lately.

Days are passing by and I still haven’t bought my plane ticket for Winnipeg. Yikes, right? I know. I fully intend on it as soon as I have the money. LIE! I have the money but I have to get to the airport to buy the damned ticket. I feel so wishy washy about the whole thing, like I know have to go but I don’t want to. I’m super scared about the whole experience and I don’t want it to be like last year…

Work is work. I hate having to wake up and go there, deal with my colleagues that just kind of seem to hate me, haha, and still try to be nice to them. I mean, I am not a mean person by any means and I’d never be rude to anyone… My explanation is they just don’t care and aren’t going to take the time to get to know me, you know? It’s sad, but it’s okay at the same time. I have nothing bad to say about them, because honestly.. I don’t know them either, so I’m just going to do my work, continue being myself and put the good vibes out there to the universe to do with as it may, haha. I wrote my two weeks notice letter the other day because I thought I’d be leaving later, but turns out I’ll probably be leaving earlier… jeepers.

All this junk has made me super tired and lazy. I’m supposed to be trying to see some of my friends before I leave but I’m just… tired! I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m tired and cranky.. my body has the worst timing. I don’t have time to be tired!

So in between, moving stress and tired stress, I always tend to think about the coming year and what I’ll do differently, and I have some major (not reall MAJOR, but pretty significant) changes that’ll be happening.

1. I’ll probably stop swapping all together. I know I said I’d probably be doing MORE swaps, but I’m thinking about it and I’m thinking to myself “I just won’t have the money or spare time really, to care about that sort of thing”, so instead I’ll just be sticking with my penpals and having little swaps between us, you know?

2. YouTube. Yep, I’m joining the revolution of Vloggers on YouTube. This, I’m really excited about because I’ve been wanting to do something like this since I saw the movie Tru Confessions with Shia LeBoeuf, haha. You probably have never even heard of the movie, but it’s really where this idea started for me. Then seeing all the people on YouTube that vlog and have channels, I’d love to document my everyday life, not saying that my life is interesting but it’s mine and I’m sure there’s people out there that can relate. I think I’m just going to do some trial stuff, to send home to my mom and see her reaction and then judge from there. So, look out for that. I’m obviously going to be posting any updates here.

3. New blog… yeah, haha. I knooooowww! “Another one?” I just think that it should correspond with the YouTube channel, doesn’t that make more sense? So, it’ll be the same username here on wordpress, but the blog itself will be called something else. This also means that my YouTube username: blitherness, will be gone too. I’ll probably just let my little brother have it because he doesn’t have one. So, the new blog will be open for business New Years Eve (that’s when the very first blog post will be up and it’ll be running from there).

4. New store… “What!?”. Yep, yep. I’m thinking of setting up a page on my blog devoted specifically to the store, where people can look at the things I’m selling and then message me to place an order. Then later on down the road I plan on setting up an online store front. I’ll be selling some of my favourite things, stationary and paper goods, possibly some jewellery and handmade things. That won’t be for a while yet, so I’ll let you know later.

Um… I think that’s kind of it for updates. Depending on what comes of all these changes, I may buy a PO Box so you guys can send me letters and what not. I think this is all going to be good though, really and truly.

*douces!

Kidney stones, moving 2013 km away… and good things!

Hey, hey , hey!

I know I haven’t written anything is such a long time, I’m aweful with a capital ‘A’, but I’ve been a little pre-occupied…

I found out what’s wrong with me… I have kidney stones! So, not only did I have a cold at the time, but I also had kidney stones which gave me the crazy stomach and pains in my sides, sweating, and nausea. It’s also why they send me home so many times. I didn’t know at the time. I was just seeing the doctor based on the cold/flu frame of mind. Who knew? Crazy. If you’ve ever had kidney stones, you know it comes on suddenly and for no reason really, and hurts like a bitch.

Yes! I’m moving, but you guys already know that, lol. I’m moving back out west for school. It’s been soooo stressful, trying to figure out the money situation, living situation, whether I’m getting a car or not. Just everything. Trying to see if I’ll be able to transfer to a store location there… I applied on the companies website yesterday, to a bunch of places in the city. I just pray to God work doesn’t find out about that. I’m just praying so hardcore right now… trying to plan everything out with Jesus in my heart and in my mind/soul. I just have to remember to breath. Savings total to date: $124.13. Mowow mowow. I know, that’s nothing! And I only have… 5 pay checks left. I really need the hours, but I hate having to work them. If I can swing at least $600 in savings:

RENT               $181.25 X 6 = $1087.50 – $600 = $487. 50

If my parents can give me that, then I won’t have to worry about paying rent while I’m there and my money can go towards saving, my car insurance, food, and living….

Getting a car! Scary!

Um.. I’ve been a little consumed with penpalling, lol. It’s been fun though. I met some cool people.

*Douces.

 

Sickness, blogging, swapping, and othe totally random thoughts

 

I don’t have H1N1, lmao. That’s what they think at work.. but it’s reeeeally funny. I start answering the phone like “H1N1″, hahah! Yes. I am sick, it does suck, and I am getting better. I was worse about a week or two ago when it started, but after getting sent home… twice, I took the time to get better and I had a great day at work yesterday because of it. Oh my goodness, I had such a great day at work yesterday. The sweetest little girl, when asked why she chose my lane, responded with “I chose the prettiest cashier” or something along those lines. It made my day, week, month.. It was so sweet.

I have 1 reader! Gah! They commented on one of my blog posts! Gah! Can you tell I’m excited? Just a little. No biggie. But it’s amazing, the best feeling ever! One person actually took the time to read my blog. I mean it’s why I write in the first place, no to be read but to have it be out there in the universe for someone to connect to. I have 1 reader. Thank you!

Have you heard of swapping? I just started getting into it. It’s this whole community of people that swap different handmade gifts for each other. There’s care packages you can send, letters, trading cards that you make and design yourself, it’s amazing. The website I signed up with is swap-bot.com, you should check it out if you have the time. It might be something you’re interested in guys. I can’t wait to get really, really into and have little collections of things people have sent me. I think it’ll be a great keepsake. I’ve just started my own swap actually. It’s called “Home for the Holidays – Care package swap (Family version)”. You get partnered with another family and send then the care package that you’ve prepared for them. Inside the package there’ll be a letter/card, a gift for your family, something nice to snack on and a keepsake. I think afterwards, depending on how many people are apart of it, I’ll send each participant a little Christmas card thanking them for participating. I’m definetly not expecting very many people to participate so… yeah, haha. The next swap I’m cooking up is a college series, I don’t know what yet though. Initially I just wanted to have be the college version of the Home for the Holidays swap, but I have some new ideas now so…. I don’t know! Haha.

I miss my korean mussssiiiicccccc, ugh, I forgot just how much! I haven’t listened to anything or watched anything for such a long time. I need to get back on that.

My student loan is taking it’s sweet time. I still have to pay the residence application fee, they’ve been bugging me for it. Ugh, I have letters to mail out and little things to but to stick in the envelope. I figure, if I stick something in there then maybe they won’t be so pissed about me being sick and not being able to mail their stuff out :p Still haven’t mailed it out and it’s Friday….

Pray for me lovies!

* Douces!

Stan, Exes, and other unfortunate events

This past week and a bit has been the worst on record for me thus far. Stan’s gone, my ex is back in my life, and overall I feel kinda shitty.

It all started with Wednesday. I decided to see my ex and hang out for a bit. I felt aweful that I kept blowing him off whenever he asked to do something with me. Of course we kissed. Straight to the point, haha. It usually ends up the same way… what can I say, I have a huge weakness for the man. Whenever I’m around him I feel like we’re together again for an hour or two, and this time maybe it’ll work out. It never does.

Thursday I got my first paycheck, and I thought that I would treat my little brother to none other then tickets to see Jay Z! I thought he’d be soooo excited and possibly even cry… but the only tears were my own when he told me he’d rather go trick or treating…

So I had to figure out what to do with these tickets! I spent my entire paycheck on them and now I’ll have to go. I asked my ex, who’s a DJ if he wanted to go with me and he said he would. Half an hour later, he said he wasn’t going but he’d buy them off me for his cousin. He picked me up from work on Friday night to buy them from me and give me a ride home… As I turned and closed the door, I saw my iPod (Stan) and my cellphone sitting on the back seat. I got my cellphone back yesterday, but they stole Stan. I have a lot of private info in there… now it belongs to someone else.

Ugh, ever since then it’s been like this internal battle with my ex. I care about him a lot but he treats me like shit and I don’t deserve it … I’ve never asked him for anything, and I haven’t done anything to him that I know of to warrant it. I’m not taking it anymore… I deleted his number, if he wants to get a hold of me then fine but I’m not contacting him at all. I’m done and exhausted. It’s all just put me in suuuuch an aweful mood.

Did I tell you guys I got a job? Finally. Its a job though, and like all jobs the excitement wears off after awhile and you begin to see people in the truest of lights. I need the money though… they know nothing about me and don’t care, quite frankly. They only care when it’s conflicting with their job. I’m amazed really…. people continue to amaze me. I bet if they knew me and my life, they wouldn’t treat me the same way.

Anyway though, I have to keep going, there’s only a few months left before the big move so I just have to hang tough for  a little while longer.

*I apologize in advanced for any typing errors, this desktop is all screwed up so half of what I’m typing, I can’t see. Seriously.

Anywho, another blog post coming atcha!

Douces!

Maxwell, iPod Touch, steady YouTube addiction, and other good things

Me and Stan, my iPod touch!

Weeee, playing Maxwell.

Meeeee

Notice anything? I got an iPod touch! It’s pretty amazing seeing as I’ve been pinning for one from afar for forever it feels like, and then my uncle bought me one. I was debating on even opening it, their really expensive and if he hadn’t bought it I probably never would have gotten one. It’s pretty amazing. My brother and I both wanted one, so of course I felt bad… but I’ll make it up to him. Spoiled, haha, joking. Now my only task is to fill this baby up, so I need some suggestions for playlists: Study, Workout, Party, Breakup music (for me it’s old school R&B. R&B is like my soul, seriously lol), Driving, and Chilling. So that’s what I’m working on.

The sexy beast in all his glory, haha

Oh my gosh….

OH my goodness…

*breathe* Okay, sorry… but he’s like the greatest. I love his music, and now he’s back better then ever. If you haven’t checked out his CD.. you need to. It’s amazing, probably in my top two right now. I love CD’s where you can play the whoooole CD and not skip through it, it’s just chill and relaxing, very good studying music. I loved it. Plus, he’s such a HWBTM (Hottie with the Body to Match, haha.. I made that up in like middle school).

Now… YouTube. Oh goodness, hahaha! Seriously, I’ve become quite the little addict. I’m trying to get into makeup and like just making myself look the best I possibly can all the time. I’m a girl, we’re supposed to be good at that. Not I. Seriously, I’m kind of a tomboy with flecks of the girlies in me, you know? There’s just certain things, I don’t do well.. like my hair, makeup.. I don’t know what to do! So, I’m taking action. There are so really amazing guru’s on YouTube too, I had NO idea it was like a big thing. There’s two that I loooove, like I literally just sit and wait for them to post another video, their THAT good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bhk291lyoM (QueenBeeuty, she’s pretty awesome. She’s in college like me, so it’s kind of obvious why I like her channel)

This is PinkIntellect15, and she too is awesome. Probably the awesomest of the awesome. She actually commented back to me when I posted on her videos. I was like “She talked to me!”, haha. Nerd. But, yeah.. she’s super sweet and personable… and she’s in college.

I found the Queen Helene Mint Julep Masque everyones been raving about on YouTube! Finally. I didn’t know if they sold it or not in Canada, and I was actually like hashing out a plan to go shopping in the states and grab a few bottles, haha, that’s how much I wanted to try it. I have pretty problematic skin, so I NEEDed to try it. You can buy it at http://www.drugstore.com, they ship to Canada and a bunch of other countries.

Did you know that you can literally buy anything on that site? Laundry detergent, medicine, makeup, perfume… I could just have everything shipped to my dorm. Which is AMAZING. Saves the embarassment of lugging pads up to my room in full view :p. Then again, I think they have to list everything on the bill of landing or whatever, so the delivery guy or gal will see it, but whatever.. when is the next time I’ll see them? Haha.

Hm.. what else. OH! On iTunes, you can actually study courses from different universities and colleges for FREE. Seriously. iTunes U. I download some Japanese courses, because I really want to learn, as well as Math. I’m also going to do some bible studies on there, so it’s great.

Whoooa, long post.

Douces!

*Cherrelle.

What a day.

LOL, um… excuse the facial expression, I live a very boring life for the most part and I’ve been a tad sleep deprived. Anyway, like my nails?! It’s the girliest part about me right now, hahah. I don’t wear makeup or anything like that, I’m such a plain Jane.

Anyway! Totally not what this post was supposed to be about. This was supposed to be more of an update then anything else. I found some super cool chicks on YouTube that have like a beauty channel, with advice and what not. I was super impressed and I spent most of the day doing that. Then! Probably the highlight of my daydizzle, I met up with a cool guy I met on Plenty of Fish (I later cancelled my membership.. I wasn’t really getting the response I was looking for, I mean do I look like the type of girl that would just hook up with anyone?Nooooo). Anyway, I had a good time, he’s a nice guy. I don’t see him romantically quite yet but he’d be an awesome person to hang out with and play video games. I’ve also been thinking a whole lot about U of M and going back in January if I don’t get into the program at U of T.

Ughhhh, I strongly detest the people in the basement. The man irks me and my mom out to no end, and his KIDS, oh my gosh… I’ll keep praying for them. They think their so smart, like.. They’ll run up and down the stairs to seem like their actually going somewhere but they never go anywhere, especially the man. Like, doesn’t he have a job? He just kind of festers in the basement :S it’s super weird. The car they have in the driveway… had never ever moved since it got there, AND just to seem like they actually went somewhere they’ll run up the stairs, out to the car and sit in it for like half an hour or however long, come back and slam the door, and run back down. Like, that just shows the type of people they are. They think we can hear them and figure out what’s going on, like… please, grow the f*ck up and get a life. Plus! I think the guy smokes weed…. dead serious, I can smell it around our house sometimes, I should call the cops… It’s illegal jerkwad! Ugh, does he ever irk me. We can even walk around the house to sneeze without them knocking something down there or mimicking it but even louder. It’s the gayest thing, everyone that’s visited our house has never seen anything like it or hear of anything like it. It’s ridiculous. Anyway… I’ll pray for the bastards just kidding, I’ll pray for them, minus the bastards part. The thing that really gets me.. his kids and me and my brother, are around the same age, I was even thinking of inviting them to play basketball with us, but that never happened. I just feel like their really rude. They didn’t even come and introduce themselves when they first got here, we went to them. Then I introduced myself to him, shook his hand and everything like…. what’s going on? So weird.

Anyway, not that I’ve thoroughly given myself a headache, I think I’ll go.

Peace out!

Hello world!

Wow, first blog post. So, I’m supposed to write something that’s meaningful and intriguing so you’ll keep reading right? Mer, haha. I got nothing, sorry! Truth is, I have no idea what to say, I thought I’d start a blog because I found myself asking myself  [that sentence sounds so weird!] “What’s next? What do I do?”. I still don’t have the answers but I figured, since I’ve always been a writter, I should write it out and see the response I get back, even if no one ever reads this v_v

I mean, besides school, drinking, and having a social life… what do 20 year olds do really? Again, I got nothing. Anyway though, don’t worry! We’ll figure it out! That’s what our 20’s are fooooor, figuring out the tough stuff and having a mindblowingly good time doing it

So, stay tuned so we can figure this shit out !

*Cherrelle.

It all works out in the end, so just smile and have fun till it does